人算不如天算

On Christmas day, planned to bring the kids to watch ALVIN N THE CHIPMUNKS 2. Did all necessary work.. Booked tickets, got the kids ready in time, went for lunch and finally made it on time to stand at the cinema's entrance to wait to enter to the cinema!!
Just at that moment, I suddenly felt something not right!! My head started to "pank, pank"!! Oh no... my headache is back!! I told myself, I would tahan till the end of the show... but.... mid of the show, I started to feel nausea... (dun be mistaken, not a sign of pregnant!!), I wanted to puke and I felt very very uncomfortable. Told hubby and we decided to leave the cinema n headed home!!
When we told Mayvis to leave, her face was so sucked!! I felt so sorry at that moment, but... I really could not stay any moment longer!!
Hubby drove as fast as he could and the moment I stepped into house, dashed to toilet n I became a MERLION!!
What a day!!
From that moment, I spent my Christmas lying on the bed and shuffered between bed n toilet!!

Mayvis' 6th Birthday

This year we had a small celebration for Mayvis' birthday.
We had dinner @ the 螃蟹之家 on 12th Dec 2009.

Then on the actual day, Tania baked a Strawberry cheese cake for Mayvis.

Although the cake turned out not so nice, but really appreciated Tania for doing it for Mayvis....

Family Trip - SHANGHAI

As Mayvis will be starting her Primary education next year, we decided to bring the kids for an oversea trip. Thus, we went to Shanghai to meet Hubby after his exhibition!!

Let the pictures tells the story!!

Our HOTTEST Toy

I asked Sharon to help me get an Apple - I Touch from New York before she came back in August..

Ever since the day I got it, I-Touch becomes the 'HOTTEST' toy in our family.

Everyday after work, Ayden sees me, the 1st thing he will say : "Touch... Touch" but not "mummy"!! :(
Then followed by, you will hear some quarrel noise at background when I sit down for a rest.
That noise comes from Mayvis and Ayden.. Fighting for I-touch!!
Normally, the winner is Ayden cos' he will cry when he lose to his Jie Jie..Then you will hear someone says "unfair unfair"!!
So poor Mayvis only hold on to it when Ayden is busy with his toys or doing some writing.
Normally, I will make sure each of them get their turn to get hold of the HOTTEST Toy in the family!

As for me and hubby.... we are more civilised. We don't fight for it..
I will use the device to check emails, do update in facebook during office hours..
After work, on the way to pick the monsters, I will use it to do some photos deco..(to see my "products", pls go to my FB) and to listen to some music.
Hubby will only get hold of it when everyone in the family is tired and about to fall asleep or already sleeping!! Hubby will use it to play some games I downloaded and FB to post some Stupid comments on Sharon's, Tania etc FB!! haha

I spent about S$600+ for it after conversion.. I think is worth.. cos it keeps everyone in the family entertained (except JoJo)... haha
Oh ya, I also downloaded some applications for Mayvis to learn her phonics and Ayden to learn how to write ABC!! So with this, it makes learning fun for the kids too!

To summarise, This is a GOOD BUY!!! haha...

Link to my FB:
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/photo.php?pid=30690842&id=1073236227
(Don't can link or not! Pls bear with me)

Mayvis' New Look

Since young, Mayvis is having long hair for almost 6 years..
Today, after her golf class, she requested me to bring her for a haircut.
So, we went to my hair stylist at No. 1 Saloon in AMK Hub.


At there, my princess said "goodbye"to her long hair..





Think she is going to keep back long hair soon.. haha...

Cancer! Cancer!

I have been following a blog belongs to a lady called Flora.
She was a Cancer Fighter. She suffered from Breast Cancer n the cells spread to her liver n she fought for 3 years.
Why I chose to follow her blog? Cos she was really a GOOD FIGHTHER. I admired her courage, her positive altitude and more.. She could even walk out of her "failed marriage" in the mid of her treatments.
I finaly made my 1st move to email her in June and she REALLY replied to my mail!!
I was very very happy to receive her mail!! From then, we exchanged hp no.
I smsed her in July when I did not get to see her update. And she replied saying she was having a rough time and would update me once she felt better...
But so sad, she did not get better and she GONE WITH GOD..
I was glad that she was released from her suffering, but I wished she could stay a bit longer so that I could meet up with her and be a REAL friend...Too bad, I wasn't given the chance.

Not long after Flora was gone, tonight, I went to attend hubby's cousin' wake. She was another victim of Cancer!! She suffered for abt 4 years. I should say she is a fighter too!!
Maybe because this cousin is same age as hubby and also hubby's playmate when young, think hubby feels a lot.. Out of the blue, hubby asked me to guess what was the ambition of this cousin!! I was shocked.. and of course I would not know the answer!!
So, I asked him back and his answer "SINGER"!!
I can sense the sadness hubby has and also understand why he suddenly asked this above mentioned question. Maybe he was thinking of the time they spent together when young etc.But I have no words to console him.. Cos, I don't know how to..
Nevertheless, I told dear to wish his cousin all the best and she is at good hands' now cos she is at the BEST PLACE now.. no pain, no suffering..

What a sad post I have created.. haiz..

What had happened to me??

I realised recently I have been very "lacked" in my work.
Reasons?? I also don't know.
But I know I seem to be unable to get my work done. Why????
This is a question I have been asking myself..

The project I am involved made me feel a bit "sick", is not a special job, but only because the changes is repeating and repeating and the people who involved in this project seem to have different direction.
Everyone seem to be very busy but in the end, there is no result!!
It somehow demoralised me..
I in a way feel myself unable to cope with it..
Is it a sign to me??
Oh no!! Telling me I am old or I no longer suit this job??

I don't deny that I keep having the idea of quitting.. But, I feel quitting is a way of "escaping"!! And also indicating that I am a loser!! haha... I think too much, right???

What can I do to boost up my spirit again???

Anyone has any suggestion??
Please do let me know..
Thanks in advance!!

JUNE HOLIDAY

Brought the kids for a short trip during June School Holidays..
Shall let the pictures replace the wordings...

Enjoys...

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

GOOD FRIEND

Last friday, I met up with my LONG LONG old plus GOOD friend of 31 years...(oops... disclosed my own age!!)
We attended the same PCF for 1/2 yr, then same Pri School for 6 years and we went to different Secondary School BUT... we still keep in CONTACT with each other till NOW.. I believe we will be like that till we "PART".. hee.

It was abt coming to 2 years we did not meet up(but we sms each other).
Before I conceived with Ayden, we used to meet up on friday for gym, but now I simply cannot afford the time to go gym.. so sad.. and that's explained my present shape!!

Whenever we met up, we both sure to share alot of family gossip.. colleagues gossip etc.. haha..
that's what we are!!

For 2 years of absence, my dear friend travelled to many places.. eg.. dubai, japan, taiwan etc.. without me... so bad..

Think this is one of the difference between a married woman and a single woman!!

Primary One Registration's STRESS!!

Next year, my little princess will be 7 yrs old.
Time really passes very fast.
It seemed like I just given birth to her not long..

For the past few months, I was still worrying which primary school to register her.
Until one fine day, Mayvis came n tell me "Mummy, I want to go Marymount Convent". At that moment, I was taken aback. How could a 6 yrs old(not exactly 6, she was borned in dec!) child tell me which school she wanted to attend!

Conveyed this massage to hubby, and discussion, we decided to register her at MMC, instead of Ai Tong.
From that day, the stress I had for the past few month was gone !!! haha..

Imagine due to have a better chance to secure a place at AT, I did all the following:
1. I joined the CCMC to be an observer. Hoping to get approval to be a community leader and be eligible to register under phrase 2B.
2. We bought a unit at Clover by the Park. But too bad, Clover's address falls between 1 to 2 km from AT!!

Although what I have done above are not useful for this time round, but, I still have Ayden's turn to worry!!
So, I better start to think where I want to register Ayden and then start to plan what "steps" to be carried out in order to secure a place for him.. haha.
Oh my god!! I have became a KIASU parent le!!
Think many parents also like me, start to be a parent volunteer when their kids are only 3 yrs old etc.. (at least I still not so KS yet...hee)

REALLY NOT EASY TO BE A PARENT NOW!!!

What kind of life should a Woman have?

I have a question in mind for sometimes, but I always cannot find the CORRECT answer to it.

My Question is :
What Kind of Life Should a Woman Have?
If she is married, must she put her husband, children at the 1st Place in her life? Or she should put herself to be 1st Place, do what she want, find her own happiness??

I really hope to know the answer..

Recently, the newspaper got a very HOT topic regarding the AWARE..
If I remember correctly, is abt the new management team talking abt lesbian and homosexual..

Can we really accept lesbian or homosexual?

Frankly speaking, I do have friends who are lesbian, homosexual..
To me, as a friend, I don't wear "COLOUR SPECTACLE" to see them.
They are still my friends regardless of what kind of relationship they have.
I always thought that those ppl who are lesbian or homosexual, they are borned with the opposite hormone in their bodies, thus, lead them to be what they are..
But I never ever realised that PEER PRESSURE can also lead someone who is "Normal" to be One!!

Let me share a story.
Recently there is someone who is very close to me has joined the "club".
Not that I cannot accept her, but I find her changes made me don't know how to react??
1st of all, if she is at her early 20 and she became one, I have no doubts and I would also support her to persue what she wanted to be..
But, in actual, this "someone"who is close me, is at her early 40 and married with kids!!
Now, she is telling me that she is willing to forsake her family and kids to persue what she wants in life in order to be HAPPY!
I find it ridiculous and I find it SUPER hard to accept!
I m sure that her changes is not due to inborn! Her changes mostly due to her new circle of friends she gets to know recently.
Although her husband is not a romantic, thoughtful kind. And he also likes to drink.. But, that do not contribute to her SUDDEN changes..
What abt the kids??
Have she ever spare a thought for the kids?
Is she correct to forsake the kids' happiness in order to exhange for what she so called "her own happiness"?

I really have many question marks in my head and I think I will never find the answers.

To me, as a woman, my thinking is that I could have a very colourful lifestyle before I got married. But once I became someone's wife, I have the responsiblity to uphold the "MRS". And if I have kids, I even more need to assure that my kids' happiness is more important than anything else in the world, cos I m the ONE who gave birth to them.. and I m the one who gone through the pain to bring them to this world.. thus, I have more responsibility than my husband to ensure my kids are well protected and leading a fruitful life.

Maybe my thinking is too conservative.

And I hope that "someone" is able to see the "light" soon to salvage the present situation before the situation becomes a "FINAL ANSWER"!
And also give a thought to her family. Due to her changes, the family is now like a plate of scattered sand.. her kids are under the care of a maid. How can the maid's care compared to her own care for the kids?
And also is it worth for her to forsake a husband who she shared her life for more than a decade?
What if all the so called "her happiness" is only a short term affair??

I have so many "what if", "worth or not to"etc on my mind....

p/s : If anyone find the topic uncomfortable, please don't carry on reading.
And please don't misunderstand me. I don't discrimnate "L" or "H".

Updates..Updates..

These few weeks manythings had happened..

WORK
Still so stressful, manythings to be done, but time is always not on my side. Thus, need to bring work home to do over weekend..

FAMILY
My two little darlings are getting very naughty.
Mayvis starts to be self-protective when fighting toys or etc with Ayden.
But Ayden on the other hand, learnt whatever things he ses Mayvis does and follows!! Really a big mess!!

MY SISTER & MOTHER
My 4th sister is hospitalised due to blood infection.
She looks so weak and ill... although she is sick, but her mouth still the same - like to talk rubbish!!

Last friday supposed to be on 1/2 day afternoon leave to bring my mum for endoscopy, but early morning of that day, the maid called to say my mum throwing tantrum and insisted not to drink the solution given by the hospital to be taken b4 the scan!! Thus, I need to sms my senior and requested to extend my leave to a FULL day. Then rush down to my mum place and pacified her!!
Finally, mum took the solution and in afternoon, brought her to SGH for her procedure.
Really very heartache to see her go through all these at her age.
But thanks god, although the endoscopy was very painful, but at least mum got a "clearance"from the tests!!
Mum needs to see the surgeon again to review the results and also to schedule her for other tests due to her rapid weight lost!!

SPENDING TIMES WITH MY KIDS
Although recently very busy, but me and hubby do not forget to bring our kids to new places..
One of the place is IMM after the renovation. There is a Kids'playground, but we did visit the playground cos we did not want the kids to be wet and the most impt, we d not bring extra clothings for them.. hee...
The other place is actually an orchid ville at Mandai.
Although the place looks ulu... but inside the ville, there is a restaurant and a display hall showing all kinds of orchids.We went there for dinner with Serena n family. After dinner, we had a walk at the display hall and also introduce our national flower to my kids!!!

Took some pictures when we were at the mentioned places with my Samsung Omnia..

Happy viewing..

Still No Voice!!

I have met the WORST bugs!
Since last Thursday till now, I gone through many days of being a MUTE, a hoarse voice gal..
Yesterday I couldn't utter a single word!! I opened my mouth trying to make some sound, but no sound at all!!
I feel so helpless.. Being a "talkative" person, how can I tahan so many days don't talk?
Can you imagine how miserable I am??

I have been home since yesterday. Today I take leave as my voice still the same.
No voice at all!! How to work? How to answer phone call??
So boring at home. It would so much better if I go office and work..

Consulted doctors twice, on antibotic etc, but the vocal cord still the same!!
Really don't know what to do!!
I tell myself, no matter tml how, I die die also want to go work.
I can't tahan staying home liao.

SAVE ME.... SAVE ME...

A Day without Voice

Yesterday I was down with Fever and sorethroat, and today I m in MUTE mode!!
The bugs were very strong to the extent that "they" ate away my "sweet voice"!!

To add to my agony, I m presently in office and my phone keep ringing!!
How to answer?? Really feel like taking the phone set n throw at the Wall.. haha..
Feel very helpless when my colleagues talk to me and I give them a "SUPER BLANK LOOK"!!
Only can smile at them!! hee... made me feel like an idiot..

Still got half a day to go before I can head home.

Cancelled my massage as I worried later the massage therapist exert too much force on me and I can't express my PAIN!!

Decided to go home and play my Nintendo Wii! Bought some new games.
Normal day, when the kids home, I have no chance to hold on to the controllers... cos, Mayvis will hold one and Ayden will fight for the 2nd one..haiz...
So today, I m all alone!! haha.. (Oops, I forget abt hubby)
I can play until I drop without any "disturbance"... heeee...
Sometime I m wondering What kind of mummy I am??
Fight with my kids for Games??
I think I still a "YOUNG GAL" inside.. haha..
(Please don't puke, ok?)

Last but not least, show you all (friends who read my lousy blog) my CHEEKY n NAUGHTY boy!! - Ayden..

FINALLY!! Everything is Over.

Last week was a terrible week for me.

Married for almost 7 years, 1st time having misunderstanding with hubby.
And to make thing worst, before we were able to "clear the air" ,
hubby needed to go for his business trip! Having unsolved issue, made me feel very uncomfortable and unhappy. Same applied for hubby.
I could imagine how he felt when he was all alone there.
And me, with a "soul-less" body, fetching and sending the kids to my sister's place b4 going to work and fetching them back after work.
My mind was is a BIG mess.
Nothing seem to get into my mind.

ABSENCE Really made the Hearts Grow Fonder...
One week without him, I really think a lot and also realised manythings I have been taken for granted.
I should have been more sensitive towards him, or else, this misunderstanding would not happen. haiz.

Luckily, hubby although still "mad" with me, but he still did what he would do whenever he was out of town. he still called home, sent smses.
Finally.. we managed to have a talk before he returned.
When he came back, we were a bit awkward.
Although we have cleared the air, but the feeling still a bit weird.. haha..
(made me think of courtship time)
Think is not easy to say "forget" n really forget.. Thus. the "FISH BONE" still stuck there... and
I "erupted" on this morning... (I buay tahan liao)!!!

Don't know is it due to my "eruption" or what, hubby seem to have soften and we managed to bring back the RIGHT FEEL again.
No more misunderstanding..YES...

To be frank, we never had such "misunderstanding/quarrel" after we got married.
We always "solved" all issues before we go to bed on the very Day! Thus, this time was considered "exceptionally Long"! A bit suffociating feel.

But nevertheless, we are back to the right track and I promised myself, I will never and also will not allow such "misunderstanding" to happen again!!!
(pls don't ask what kind of misunderstanding...hee)

What a Saturday!

This weekend considered to be a very busy & sad one for me.

BUSY - because me & hubby rushed like mad on saturday in order to make for a few places.
First, we after work, rushed to send the car for polish, then took a cab to Suntec for the IT fair, then back to collect our car from Vicom at Sin Ming Road, then to Parent In Law's place to fetch Ayden, then to collect cake, then to Bishan to fetch Mayvis and finally to our last destination of the day - Far East Square!!
We were celebrating my 2nd brother-in-law's b'day at Zhou's Kitchen.

Talking abt IT fair, when we reached Suntec, we could not believe that S'pore is affected by the Financial Crsis. There were so many people there. The whole Suntec was crowded with people.
Of course there must be a reason why we went there. (Not because we like to be squeezed by ppl!)
I wanted to get a desktop for home usage. My present one is very slow and has been used for many years.. Thus, hubby n I decided is time to change a new one.
The fair takes up level 2/4/6 . And we spent at least 4 hrs at level 4!! We didn't hv the chance to go level 6.
There were so many brands and beside PC, I was attracted to something else!!
What is it ? - Is LCD TV.. The prices was so attractive. I nearly wanted to forsake my desktop and in exchange for a 42"LCD TV!!
But after giving a good thought, I decided to say GOODBYE to the LCD TV and continue to source for my desktop.
Finally! We settled for HP! And we paid S$1699 for a 22" LCD monitor, a 2.93GHz Duo processor, 640GB Hard disk space.

SAD - Cos I received a sms from my boss telling me one of ex-colleague from SM had passed away! Was a BIG shock to me.
That colleague of mine was at the age of 42 when he passed away on friday. He was suffering from Lung Cancer.
But feel very curious and cannot understand why someone who don't smoke and lead a healthy lifestyle would get such illness?
I can remember vividly that when I was still in SM, I always see him going round the office on friday evening reminding the rest of the colleagues for the soccer practice on saturday.
He was the "captain" (if I did not remember wrongly). He was the only one that I could see the "fire" in him for soccer in the office. At that time, he was 30 plus.
Heard from an ex-colleague, he contracted this illness on 2007.
He worked as a AD in another M&E company after he left SM.
But FATE chose to "play" with him and decided to take him away in the end.
Somehow I feel very sad for him and also sorry for not able to pay my last respect to him as his funeral was held this morning.
From now on, I cannot hear ppl mentioning abt him anymore in my trade .

Rest in Peace, my friend.
Hope you can find your "new field" for your soccer practice THERE.

Another Day of No Work!!

It may sounds a bit weird for my title " another day of no work"!!

Actually, don't know since when, I have been missing from work at least one day per week!!
Either was MC or urgent leave due to kids or my maternal family or not well.
Haiz..

I think I must have caused many troubles for my boss..
To be frank, I have a very nice boss, think cannot find another person like him..
Thus, I feel so bad that I always need to take MC or leaves so frequently.
But I really can't help it.. It TRUE that there is always thing happen...
I m not telling any lies or trying to be lazy..

I have received some comments from other colleagues saying some colleagues (one of them) has been using my absence as a reason to cover up for what he has not done for the project!!
(We are doing the same project!!)-Urghh!!!
I feel so pissed off by him! All along in the project, this colleague only know how to use "mouth exercise" n not action to work.. N also a GOOD player in office politics!!

Enough of my grumbles..

Today I cannot go work again!! Why?
Cos, Ayden suddenly developed FEVER yesterday midnight!! 38.5deg C!!
So this morning, brought him to see pd, coaxed him n also to take care of him.
Till now, his fever still has not subsided.. really worrying.
Ayden is super cranky whenever he is sick and I REALLY feel very exhausted now.

In fact, I have planned to bring Ayden for his vaccination this friday for MMR, but now, due to his fever, need to push backwards again..

Don't know why whenever I plan something, sure got hinder and I cannot carry out my plan smoothly.
Is this what LIFE is??

Tomorrow go back to office, sure to receive some "comments" again!!
I wonder why some people has the "hobby" of doing thing or passing comments to hurt others!!

CNY' 2009

Some pictures took during Chinese New Year...

1st Day at my mum's place..


Pictures of Ayden..

Family Trip to Desaru on 27th Dec 2008

Eversince my dad passed away in year 2003, me n my sisters will try our best to plan for a short holiday together with our mum.

Thus, last year (2008) we went to Malaysia-Desaru for a 2 Days 1 night trip..
Total we had 22 pax inclusive of Ayden..
And this is also the 1st time Ayden went OVERSEA!!! haha..

We joined a Guided Tour and it included places like ostrich farm, fruit farm, a night tour to see fireflies!!! We travelled by Coach!!!

As I m the youngest in my family, my sisters' kids all are either teenagers or young adults or in pri. sch. Thus, my kids are the youngest among them!! And due to this, everyone "sayang" my kids and also "spolit" them!!

There were total 44 ppl travelling together on the coach, minus away my family, there were 22 strangers. And because of Ayden, these 22 ppl could not have quiet and peaceful rest on the coach. Ayden created the most noise on the coach.. so paisay....

Mayvis was very busy on the coach as she brought her DS with her, thus, she would either busy playing it or sleeping! This trip was an eye-opener for her too.. cos in S'pore where to see Ostrich, except zoo?? She also learnt some knowledge abt fruits.. hee..(hopefully)!!

Afterall, this trip was fun for the kids, for us, adults, was a bonding and gossiping time.. haha..