Lesson Learnt - Renovation

When we got the keys to our new place, we started to source for interior designer cum reno company.
After our "careful" search, we found this company called "MY DESIGN PTE LTD" located at Sin Ming Road.
Initially, we only signed up for the design package and the designer did up the designs which suit our ideas. We were happy with it and after long discussion with hubby, we decided to use them for the reno too...
And that was where our nightmare started...

Everytime when we met up for discussion, the designer and the co-ordinator only listened and never bother to jot down our comments. And whenever hubby sent emails to them, they did not reply at all!

Then came the final stage when we asked when could they handover the house and we could move in. They committed a date verbally.
Eversince they started the work at our new place, me and hubby every night without fail, took a torch light and went to our place to see the progress.. Sad to say, everytime the progress was so disappointing. We realised they made many mistakes and told the designer and co-ordinator through emails and smses.. But they did not bother to take it seriously. Ended up, during the last week, our house still looked like a mess, 80% undone!!
That was when hubby could not take it anymore and started to demand a lot of things from them and deadlines,... Again, the designer took it very lightly.
How could a carpentry work redo and redo for at least 2 times!!

Till the last day from the handover date, hubby again asked can they handover by tml??? Again, they kept quiet. Silence means consent!
Thus, the handover date was here!! But the house still not ready!!
Hubby was so so mad! And worst of all, that day was our 10th wedding anniversary!!
Can you imagine how HOT he WAS??!!!

Anyway, with all the harvoc, the scolding, screaming, losing of temper, we finally got our house a week later than the agreed date.
And due to that, we shifted all the delivery dates, mover dates and also lost a tenant for for our old house!

Frankly speaking, the workmanship of this company is really sucks!!!
Till now, the carpentry still need to come to our place to do touch up!!!
We are totally disappointed with this company, we thought with a small company would be better in term of workmanship and etc, but we are totally wrong!!
Besides sales talk, think nothing is considered GOOD.
Anyway, first and the last time, we would not use them again!!

My Parents

Although now that both my parents no longer around, but they are forever in my heart.
Their laughters, their anger, their sadness - all expressions shall be with me till I meet them again.

When my mum gave birth to me, she was 36 yrs old and dad was 42 yrs old.
They were not well educated. Dad worked as a salesman and mum was a housewife.
Although we were not rich, but I was showered with a lot of love from them since young.

I remember when I was 4 yrs old, I started to follow dad to work. I would sit in the car and waited for him when he went to visit his customers. Then we would go to a petrol kiosk in Geylang where dad would meet his taxi's friends for coffee. We would also wash the car at there. Dad would take care of the external and I would take care of the internal.

During saturdays, I would go shopping with mum, visit my eldest aunty at a temple or go to mum's brother house. Then evening time, would meet up with dad and went home together.

I was a very daddy's girl. I followed my dad whenever he went. Even when he went for mahjong sessions at uncle's house. But I also very closed to my mum.. Cos I was her informer!! wahaha!!

I was very lucky compared to my other siblings. I remembered dad and mum brought me to Genting highland for so manytimes till I lost count. And I got most of the toys I requested..

As I was the youngest, my other siblings all were teenagers or even started to work. Thus, I was the only one who always around with my parents. Needless to say, I was the last one who got married in the family.

Before married, I would chat with them after dinner.We talked about anything. Sometimes during the chat, mum and dad would start to argue a bit and I would be the Peacemaker! After that, dad would watch his new and went to bed. Mum and I would stay on to watch other TV programs and started our WOMEN talk! Haha...
Think due to all these, we were even closer. And that should explained why their death hit me the worst.

There was so much more I wanted to write..
How I wish I can turn back the clock!
I missed you mummy and papa...

My Dearest Mummy is Gone!!

In 2003, December 22nd, I lost my dearest Papa due to cancer and heart attack.
In 2011, June 29th, I lost my dearest Mummy due to virus infection and heart attack.

In 2003, when Papa was ill and hospitalised, I didn't have the chance to see his last time as I was having confinement. I was only allowed to see him when he was already peacefully lied on the coffin.
The feeling was so hurting. I had thousand and thousand of words to tell him.. But I was not given the chance.

Now in 2011, June 29th, I was with Mummy all the time.
I was traumatised by the whole thingy. Did not expect such ending.
Mummy was admitted due to fever.

27th June - the medical team was unable to find out what went wrong with mum which caused fever. Then they started to give her antibotic to bring her fever down. The medical team was not observant at all.
I was not very happy. As I felt that mummy was panting and I requested the nurse to check her. But the nurse replied was so F***ing irresponsible! She replied saying that fever's patient sure to pant.
Then I replied saying I did not pant when I was having fever!
Think she was trying to avoid doing some checking as mummy was at her ward for temporary due to no bed at general medicine ward!
Finally, mummy was transferred to general ward and she was resting well when the nurse woke her up and transferred her to another bed!
I really don't understand the purpose of doing so.
Anw, on 28th early morning, 5.20am, I received a call from the hospital saying mummy was in critical condition as her breathing was bad and needed to send her to ICU!
Everything was so sudden. The moment I reached mummy's ward, the medical team had started to insert her with many tubes etc. They took another X-ray and said that mummy contacted pneumonia. But when mummy was admitted at A&E, they said her X-ray was cleared! What was all these abt?
The next moment when mummy was in ICU, all bad news started to come.
1st, the registrar explained that mummy was having urine tract infection which affected her kidneys, then said that the virus has spread to her lung and chest! Mum's urine and blood was collected when she was at normal ward, and now then tell me what went wrong!? TTSH needed 3 days to have the result??
I really could not accept. The worst was not out yet...
On tuesday midnight, my sis smsed saying my mum suffered a heart attack! At that time, mummy was having dialysis! What the hell!!
On wednesday morning, I rushed down and spoke to the registrar again. This time he said mummy's recovery only 10%!
Seeing mummy suffering in there, having so many tubes on her. I could feel her pain.
Told the medical team to give her the best treatment but made her less pain, thus, they sedated her. Although mummy was sleepy, but she was conscious. She heard every words we said. I even promised her that she could go home once she pulled through this and I sure to bring her home.
I broke my promise. I did not!
On wednesday afternoon, the medical team gave me the new I hate most! Mummy was not able to pull through wednesday.
My world really fell apart! I broke down badly.
I hate this! I hate this!
A lot of things started to come to my mind. I started to feel unfair, many blames started to come to me.

Mummy finally gone at 1547hrs. She decided to give up. Think she felt too stressful to fight the battle. And probably she was really very tired.

Mummy, I know you heard what I told you. And I am grateful that you made me feel better by leaving us with a peaceful look. No tears in your eyes, no painful look.
But I am jealous.. Cos you really chose to be with papa than me!! hur hur...
You told me I am the one you sayang.... but I think you loved papa MOST!! hee..

Anyway, I believe you should be very happy now. Cos you are with papa now.
I saw your picture yesterday at the temple. You smiled very brightly..
I miss you, mummy..
Till we meet again,, papa and mummy..

Worst of My Life

Yesterday, 06.06.2011, marked as the worst day of my life.I had the 1st car accident.
It happened when I was driving home with the kids from my sister's place.

It all happened in a flash.
It was a real bad shock to me and the kids.
But I think it affected Mayvis the most. She cried non-stop from the moment the accident happened. She could not stop! 
Ayden was the most cartoon one! He started to nag at me after the accident happened!
He said" Mummy, u cannot bang ppl's car, u know!"
He nagged since yesterday till today!! Faintz!!
Only when my sisters(Pat n Serena) and their families came,
then Sharon managed to calm Mayvis down.

I was lost! My mind was blank. But I need to put on a brave and calm look.
Luckily there was no injury and with the help of Marcus and James (hubby's friend), the car was towed to the authorised workshop and everything was settled.

This afternoon went to the workshop to do the accident statement and all necessary paperwork. I think I caused hubby a lot of troubles. He need to make all necessary arrangement for me although he is oversea now!

Think this is the worst I feel after Papa passed away.

I feel so lousy. :(

Reality World??!!!

I am with my present company for 6 months.
Workscope wise, I am coping well. But talking abt social skill (sales), I think I am still far away from there. I still can't put down my "pride", I find it weird and awkward to talk to someone whom I don't know at all, feel uneasy when I need to serve my customers during company's dinner or events. Think really need to buck up on this.

Till now, I still asking myself am I able to cope with this.
To be frank, I still unable to accept ppl who speak with sarcastic words, play games behind just to achieve their aim, throwing their authority around.
Why can't ppl be more simple and straight forward?
Really MNC world has to be like this??
Many question marks!!

I encountered some ridiculous scenes:

1) One of the colleague passed a comment : "Oei, u nvr go entertain your customer huh?" u reveal a bit la.. sure can one!"
I really felt like slapping him! I was so mad and I told him off "sorry, this is just a job, nothing very impt to me, maybe u need to do so in order to be what you are!!"

2) Yesterday we had golf tournament, the door gift was a tempur pillow. During the dinner, the DDM/SGM would go round and distributed the pillow, as staff, we need to pass the pillows to them. As this was the 1st time I was doing this, I was telling one colleague that I felt funny.. Then one of the SM heard, he turned over and said "why funny?, u think the customers will ask you to sleep with them huh?"
I was damned pissed off and angry! I stared at him and walked away!
What a disgusting fellow!! No wonder he always chooses to talk to a female colleague who wears short skirt or tight hugging dress!!
I really feel very disgusted and I am glad that I am not in his team and no need to see him or talk to him everyday! Being a SM is nothing big deal!

Just wanna tell those dirty fellows, you guys need the job more than I do.
I came here to work just to gain some experience and also to learn new things.
I can jolly well sit at home and be a homemaker. This is no big deal to me!
Don't make me lose all respect to you as your posts are.
Now looking at you all, I feel like looking at some disgusting, low class animals!!

I begin to believe some remarks I heard abt them
And I also believe a sentence I read from a book, when ppl makes or pass comments about you is because you are a THREAT to them.
And this is called OFFICE POLITICS!!!  

Resolutions for year 2011

A new year has begun.. Yet I still have some uncertainty to clear!

So my resolutions for this year:

1. To settle down on a job. Too many offers do not seem to be a good sign.

2. To lose all my unwanted kilo!

3. To make full use of my gym membership.

4. To be continued!!! ( let me think somemore then continue writing)!

Changes

I left my previous company on 30th August 2010.
Took a short break, went to Taiwan for my 2nd honeymoon and started my "new job" as a SAHM!! Thought I could score very "good points". But less than 2 weeks, I surrendered!!
Luckily, I had plan B to proceed when my plan A failed!! Haha...
So, on 20th September 2010, I started my 3rd job in my life.
I joined MEAP as a Senior Engineer. Title sounds so nicee..
Job scope is much lesser from my previous one..
After a month plus now, I still don't feel I am working full time. I still have the "holiday mood" feel.
I like the 5 days system. Every week passes so fast.
But to be frank, I miss the kind of achievement feeling I used to have when I was in TPL. The work here is consider easy for me. All thanks to the knowledge I gained in TPL.
I realised the BIG difference between a local company and a MNC company.
Big company tends to have many groups, and everyone seem to be wary of another. Political issues are everywhere, unlike TPL, everyone works like a family and no need to be worry being "shoot" behind your back!!
To be frank, I don't think I am suitable for a political workplace as I am too blunt.. Thus, I may kill myself anytime.. haha...

My new colleagues are great. But they are all younger than me and most of them are single and unattached. Thus, their lifestyle are so carefree and enjoyable.
Looking at them, I somehow envy.. haha... Made me think of my carefree lifestyle before married. Unlike my ex-colleagues, we are all married, our topics were all about family, kids etc.. But now, I need to switch my mind set and talk "young stuff".. haha.. So funny..

Think that's about it.. Will update more about my new life style and my new work..

My Hubby

Eversince decision made, I have many new things added to my list especially with the support from hubby!

1. LV bag, model: Palemo MM

2. A 0.61carat solitaire diamond ring, although not a very high grade one, but I appreciated hubby's thought of fulfilling my wish.

3. Another diamond plus sapphire flower ring. This is an Extra one. The flower caught my eyes and when put on to my finger, hubby said "nice"! With that word, his wallet burnt another hole!! Haha

I really appreciate hubby's love for me. He although a bit wood n don't or seldom give me surprises. But he never fail to buy me whatever I want, even though he knows what I want is not something I need but more of extra!! In fact, he provides everything I need and even more..
Really glad that I have him. With him, I feel more secure and confident with what I am doing. He never fail to be there for me when I am down and sad! His love for me makes me feel I am the most 幸福的小女人(although size is huge)! Hope my love also makes him feel he is a 幸福的小男人!!

Mayvis back to her Kindergarten

On 31st July, we attended Ayden's school Safari Adventure Day.
Mayvis was there too. It was her Kindergarten too. She spent 3 years there.
So naturally, everything was so familiar to her.
She got to see most of her favourite teachers. But she was so shy and when the teachers talked to her, she was hiding behind me!!
Luckily managed to snap a few pictures of her with her favourite teachers before we left the school for the day.

Miss Lok - K1 Teacher

Mrs Lim - K1 Form Teacher

Mrs Teo - K2 Form Teacher

Tang Lao Shi - K2 CL Teacher

Ayden's 1st Safari Adventure Day

Last Saturday, we went to Ayden's school for Safari Adventure day.
The teachers lead the pre-nursery and nursery students to set up the safari.
Ayden's class did a Zebra!
Ayden was so proud of the work and he kept bringing us to see his zebra!
In his class, they also did up the cats, dogs etc.

The lady in picture is Ayden's form teacher - 颜老师 and the ZEBRA!!

Updates!!

Long time no update my blog.

Not that I forgotten about it, but more due to the reason of not enough time to use everyday!! (Haha - Lame excuse)

Let me update a bit..

I changed the look of the blog by using the templates published by Blogger.

Give me comments, okay??

Eversince Mayvis starts her primary education. I can see some changes going on. Probably because she is attending convent school, and her friends are all girls, I can see the "spoilt brat" alititude in her. I realised the changes in her more significant after the June holiday. She requested for manythings unnecessary, eg. handphone, buying things from the school bookstore. Whenever my answer is a NO to her, she would throw tantrum, get angry with me! And she would tell me, "why my friends' mummies all said can and not you?" I sometime really don't know how to answer her questions and requests!!

Ayden has become taller and he is able to speak better. But boys are boys.. He is definitely very cheeky and naughty. But I realised he not as strong as Mayvis. Ayden has been coughing since we returned from Shanghai last decemember. Every month the PD's clinic name will sure to appear on my credit bill at least once! I have kept him away from sweets, chocolate, or any sweet stuff.. Worrying all these will trigger phelgm or his cough. Is actually a torture to him.
Last Wednesday the school was celebrating Racial Harmony Day and he came home telling my sister(his nanny) that the teachers did not give him chocolate biscuits and sweets!! He said everyone had it!! So poor boy!

Now about me and hubby.
Practically nothing special, hubby still "flying around" at least once a month. He is working hard and I am spending hard too!! Haha..
Me still working at the same place. Doing everything the same.
Except recently has been running around the KK hospital due to my mum.
But luckily, the chapter ended last friday(hopefully).
My mum did a procedure at KKH, although is a simple procedure but due to my mum's age and health, it became a very major case!! But thanks god, she went through the procedure.Now waiting for the result of the poli that was removed last thursday.

Think that's about it for the time being.

Belows are some pictures we took during our June holidays and other activities since June till now.

At Hiiltop
Night View of Hilltop At Cameronhighland - Museum Fidgets

Hand Foot Mouth Disease

This "uninvited" guest came to our family recently..
Caused Ayden to suffer for a week and in return tortured me for a week!!!
Ayden was so poor thing.. Could not eat, drink etc.. Saliva kept dripping.. haiz..
His mouth was full of ULCERS!!!
After making Ayden suffered, this "guest" decided to find Mayvis..
At least Mayvis' case is still not that bad as Ayden's. Mayvis' hands n legs, especially the joints.. are full of rashes.. She has very little ulcers.. BUT, that does not mean she will not whine n crank!! She likes a big baby.. Anytime also "mummy... mummy"!!
I really going to burst!! Almost 2 weeks of torture!!

I feel very bad that this stupid "guest" went to my 3rd Sis'place n stays with Sherralyn now!!
Poor girl, hers is the Worst of all!! Like Ayden's.. She also has many ulcers in her mouth..I heard from my sis that Sherralyn can't even talk properly..
Really so Paisay to have pass the virus to her..
Must be last saturday, Sherralyn helped to coax Ayden when he was cranky!!

Let's pray that Sherralyn quickly recovers... And also my dear girl, Mayvis!!
Mummy very tired alrdy.. Oh pls!!

School Starts!!!

Beginning of 2010, Ayden is attending pre-nursery class at Marymount Kindergarten. Mayvis starts her primary education at Marymount Convent School.

First day of School:

1) AYDEN
- Very excited, wore his uniform n got ready to school. Because my sister was with him, he was very much at ease.. His class was in a mess.. Many crying n screaming, but he was steady.. not affected at all!

2) MAYVIS
- Very excited, but a bit worry here n there.. got a bit frustrated when the school bus was a bit late!! I went to peep at her during recess time, she was coping all well..

Following Days :

1) AYDEN
- Started to be affected by other kids.. Felt insecure when no familiar face around. Cried when boarded the school bus. Smiled happily when alighted from school bus.

2) MAYVIS
- Seem to adapt to school life style very well. Only complaint was VERY TIRED!!

That's are my kids!!!

人算不如天算

On Christmas day, planned to bring the kids to watch ALVIN N THE CHIPMUNKS 2. Did all necessary work.. Booked tickets, got the kids ready in time, went for lunch and finally made it on time to stand at the cinema's entrance to wait to enter to the cinema!!
Just at that moment, I suddenly felt something not right!! My head started to "pank, pank"!! Oh no... my headache is back!! I told myself, I would tahan till the end of the show... but.... mid of the show, I started to feel nausea... (dun be mistaken, not a sign of pregnant!!), I wanted to puke and I felt very very uncomfortable. Told hubby and we decided to leave the cinema n headed home!!
When we told Mayvis to leave, her face was so sucked!! I felt so sorry at that moment, but... I really could not stay any moment longer!!
Hubby drove as fast as he could and the moment I stepped into house, dashed to toilet n I became a MERLION!!
What a day!!
From that moment, I spent my Christmas lying on the bed and shuffered between bed n toilet!!

Mayvis' 6th Birthday

This year we had a small celebration for Mayvis' birthday.
We had dinner @ the 螃蟹之家 on 12th Dec 2009.

Then on the actual day, Tania baked a Strawberry cheese cake for Mayvis.

Although the cake turned out not so nice, but really appreciated Tania for doing it for Mayvis....

Family Trip - SHANGHAI

As Mayvis will be starting her Primary education next year, we decided to bring the kids for an oversea trip. Thus, we went to Shanghai to meet Hubby after his exhibition!!

Let the pictures tells the story!!

Our HOTTEST Toy

I asked Sharon to help me get an Apple - I Touch from New York before she came back in August..

Ever since the day I got it, I-Touch becomes the 'HOTTEST' toy in our family.

Everyday after work, Ayden sees me, the 1st thing he will say : "Touch... Touch" but not "mummy"!! :(
Then followed by, you will hear some quarrel noise at background when I sit down for a rest.
That noise comes from Mayvis and Ayden.. Fighting for I-touch!!
Normally, the winner is Ayden cos' he will cry when he lose to his Jie Jie..Then you will hear someone says "unfair unfair"!!
So poor Mayvis only hold on to it when Ayden is busy with his toys or doing some writing.
Normally, I will make sure each of them get their turn to get hold of the HOTTEST Toy in the family!

As for me and hubby.... we are more civilised. We don't fight for it..
I will use the device to check emails, do update in facebook during office hours..
After work, on the way to pick the monsters, I will use it to do some photos deco..(to see my "products", pls go to my FB) and to listen to some music.
Hubby will only get hold of it when everyone in the family is tired and about to fall asleep or already sleeping!! Hubby will use it to play some games I downloaded and FB to post some Stupid comments on Sharon's, Tania etc FB!! haha

I spent about S$600+ for it after conversion.. I think is worth.. cos it keeps everyone in the family entertained (except JoJo)... haha
Oh ya, I also downloaded some applications for Mayvis to learn her phonics and Ayden to learn how to write ABC!! So with this, it makes learning fun for the kids too!

To summarise, This is a GOOD BUY!!! haha...

Link to my FB:
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/photo.php?pid=30690842&id=1073236227
(Don't can link or not! Pls bear with me)

Mayvis' New Look

Since young, Mayvis is having long hair for almost 6 years..
Today, after her golf class, she requested me to bring her for a haircut.
So, we went to my hair stylist at No. 1 Saloon in AMK Hub.


At there, my princess said "goodbye"to her long hair..





Think she is going to keep back long hair soon.. haha...

Cancer! Cancer!

I have been following a blog belongs to a lady called Flora.
She was a Cancer Fighter. She suffered from Breast Cancer n the cells spread to her liver n she fought for 3 years.
Why I chose to follow her blog? Cos she was really a GOOD FIGHTHER. I admired her courage, her positive altitude and more.. She could even walk out of her "failed marriage" in the mid of her treatments.
I finaly made my 1st move to email her in June and she REALLY replied to my mail!!
I was very very happy to receive her mail!! From then, we exchanged hp no.
I smsed her in July when I did not get to see her update. And she replied saying she was having a rough time and would update me once she felt better...
But so sad, she did not get better and she GONE WITH GOD..
I was glad that she was released from her suffering, but I wished she could stay a bit longer so that I could meet up with her and be a REAL friend...Too bad, I wasn't given the chance.

Not long after Flora was gone, tonight, I went to attend hubby's cousin' wake. She was another victim of Cancer!! She suffered for abt 4 years. I should say she is a fighter too!!
Maybe because this cousin is same age as hubby and also hubby's playmate when young, think hubby feels a lot.. Out of the blue, hubby asked me to guess what was the ambition of this cousin!! I was shocked.. and of course I would not know the answer!!
So, I asked him back and his answer "SINGER"!!
I can sense the sadness hubby has and also understand why he suddenly asked this above mentioned question. Maybe he was thinking of the time they spent together when young etc.But I have no words to console him.. Cos, I don't know how to..
Nevertheless, I told dear to wish his cousin all the best and she is at good hands' now cos she is at the BEST PLACE now.. no pain, no suffering..

What a sad post I have created.. haiz..

What had happened to me??

I realised recently I have been very "lacked" in my work.
Reasons?? I also don't know.
But I know I seem to be unable to get my work done. Why????
This is a question I have been asking myself..

The project I am involved made me feel a bit "sick", is not a special job, but only because the changes is repeating and repeating and the people who involved in this project seem to have different direction.
Everyone seem to be very busy but in the end, there is no result!!
It somehow demoralised me..
I in a way feel myself unable to cope with it..
Is it a sign to me??
Oh no!! Telling me I am old or I no longer suit this job??

I don't deny that I keep having the idea of quitting.. But, I feel quitting is a way of "escaping"!! And also indicating that I am a loser!! haha... I think too much, right???

What can I do to boost up my spirit again???

Anyone has any suggestion??
Please do let me know..
Thanks in advance!!